It finally came.

Due to the Hurricane all of us LSAT takers had to wait a couple extra days to get our scores. Scores came out yesterday and I was all twisted in my stomach waiting for them.

I did a lot better than I thought. I was worried because there was a section that I didn't understand at all and literally guessed on six questions. Want to know how that turned out? Four out of six correct. That's a statistical anomaly. Seriously, like 1 in 600 chance of that happening or something.

I scored better on the section I usually do the worst on and vice versa. I left that test feeling like crap so it was a nice surprise when I only scored a few points lower than my best practice scores.

I got a 166. Which isn't going to get me into an Ivy league but it's decent. Also, fun fact: Dan and I got the same score. Although when he got the score it was in the 96th percentile and now it's in the 93rd. He's such an old man.

It's done. It's over. I am never taking that test again (although it crossed my mind to because I'm a defeatist). And now it's just applications and personal statements. Boom.

Also, we went out to celebrate last night. Fajitas and Margaritas! 

Just put on Lucinda, baby, and dance with me.

It's been a while. I was pretty frustrated/angry/sad after the LSAT. I moped for about 4 days and then threw myself into finishing the quilt top and starting P90X. 

Needless to say, not much to write about. I don't get my score back for a few more days. So, we'll see. 

So here are some iphone shots from the past few weeks. Enchilada soups, warm socks, and hot chocolate are the cure for just about any ailment. Even a sore pride. 

Insecurity and self-doubt.

I take the LSAT on Saturday.

I've been studying hard for 3 months now and I'm pretty beat by it. It's nice to only focus on one subject (kind of) but it has also been hard to stay focused and motivated when thousands of variations of the same question come before me and I still only get maybe 80% of them right.

It's also tiring because I just went backwards. I scored lower than I've been trending and it's scary.

(Disclaimer: I tend to stress about things that really don't matter in the long run, but there is no talking me out of the stress - I stress needlessly and I know it.)

It's scary because I want to get into law school. I want to get into a good law school. It's frustrating as well because I can't just throw out a bunch of applications all over the country and see if any big fish catch my line.

We are going where Dan gets a job. He's only applying to places that have a law school in the area but my options diminish severely depending on the area of the country we're in. In my mind this means I need to kick-ass on this LSAT. I need to get my foot in the door of every and any admissions office I can.

I'm sure my score right now would get me into law school. And I know it's pride that wants to be accepted into UCLA/Stanford/Berkeley. I'm going to have to let go of that.

I'm still working hard and I've got a few more days before I take this thing for real but I'm a bit discouraged. That's where I'm at today, in this process; I'm discouraged. I've placed a lot of pressure on myself and I'm afraid of disappointment.

Back in the saddle.

It has started.
I took my first fake LSAT test and.... I bombed.
Dan said that's pretty usual. I mean I scored an average score but it did nothing for my ego.

The course is really good so far though. I already feel like I understand the questions more and I've only been at it for a few days.

On Saturday we went to Barnes and Boble to study/read. I was studying for this test and Dan was reading the Supreme Court rulings on the Health Care Bill.
We're nerds.